May 2009
1 post
erm... i dunno what to call this...
self-realization? self-discovery? err… what else… i dunno. but does it really matter?
we live in a time where everyone is trying to tell us who to be, how to act, what to do, what to say, blahblahblah… the list goes on and on and on. which sounds like it could be making our lives easier, right? i mean, we dont have to think about anything, cause someone is always telling us...
April 2009
11 posts
“Quote me! Quote me! Uhh… What do I have to say today…? CAH-TOON!...”
– Hayley McCall
damn.
i wish i could find band members who were into the same kinda music as me.
as in, coldplay, neverending white lights, leaving sangster, the passengers, etc.
you know, mellow stuff.
awww.
i need a drummer, a bassist, and a lead guitarist :(
I like the message this song gives. It’s...
life.
pretty goddamn frustrating right now if you ask me.
i keep saying this over and over and over, trying to make things better, but it’s not. i’m overwhelmed with shit. this year has just been ridiculous, like. i just want to scream. i’ve been having ridiculous nervous breakdowns, throwing up, getting the shakes, and anxiety attacks.
not fucking good.
so i finally decided to see...
Sipping whiskey out the bottle, not thinking 'bout...
I want a tattoo, too. Let’s do it together, Jess :)
jesskalaa:
I think everyone should do something for themselves atleast once a day. Do something that makes you smile, even if its the smallest thing. More importantly, I think everyone should do something that scares them. Something they never thought they’d do, but do it anyways. Who cares if its a school night, go on a late night walk...
“Does he look the same in every picture?”
– Ms Cressman on Internet Boyfriends
“AH! You’ll never get in!”
– Hayley McCall
love.
rikashay:
stupidrantsgohere:
Erin keeps talking about this free-writing thing. So I’m gonna try it. I’m sure she’ll tell me if I’m doing it wrong.
So. Love. Haha, I dont really know why i’m writing about this, i read Jess’s blog about how people find love and then that note she wrote and facebook and it kinda got me thinking.
While I agree that love isn’t always a movie-perfect thing. It...
love.
Erin keeps talking about this free-writing thing. So I’m gonna try it. I’m sure she’ll tell me if I’m doing it wrong.
So. Love. Haha, I dont really know why i’m writing about this, i read Jess’s blog about how people find love and then that note she wrote and facebook and it kinda got me thinking.
While I agree that love isn’t always a movie-perfect...
“Do or do not. There is no try.”
– Lisa quoting Yoda.
woo, we're almost done!
but that doesn’t mean it’s getting any easier
as i get older, i realize that life is really about one thing.
caring.
people need something to care about. to push them to try harder. to do better. everyone needs to succeed. and to do that, everyone needs goals. but what happens when we lose sight of what we want? what happens when we stop caring. what happens when we find we cant...
March 2009
13 posts
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imagine all those souls hanging upside down
i don’t know addictions the sun keeps going down i’m no worse than addiction the sun keeps going down
insight or outsight for some it’s one and the same insight or outsight for some it’s one and the same
Kevlar, country shield the cops won’t find me here
i’ve fallen off their radar i’ll leave them all behind...
.
i’m at work and i have to pee so badly.
blah.
anywhoooo.
i almost done all my projects.
now that’s exciting.
but i know i’ll just get a billion more on monday
oh well.
but the good news is, every day 4 i get off at 11.
hurray!
So. always look on the bright side.
even when you feel like shit.
cause there’s always something good to look forward to.
like gaining...
“I have to think of something witty…”
– Hayley McCall
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toasted friends, broken glass running through the summer grass living, tired north end street
that building used to be my park no neon signs fight with the dark i see different stars tonight
in her life she regrets having met those boys she met she’s a flower in my yard
what she wants is so secure i dont have those things i’m sure i stay home on a friday night
humber.
i really want to get in.
omg.
my audition was like. :/
let me give you a time line of what it was like.
- greeted by Paul DeLong, nice guy. Tried to make me feel relaxed. - didn’t work, still having a little freakout. - played my snare solo and nailed it - asked to play along to a jazz tune - nailed the tune - asked to play to a faster tune - was nervous, couldn’t find the time for...
Twenty Questions.
1. What do I mean to you? You’re a friend. 2. Do I matter at all? You matter, yes, as much as all my other friends do. 3. How do you feel about me now? I want to talk to you. But I’m not a good conversationalist. 4. Do you forget about me? Nope. 5. Are we friends? I consider us friends. 6. Do you miss me? I do. 7. Will you make the effort to keep our relationship something - anything -...
pressure.
When I read the line “Congratulations! You have been accepted into the Yorks BFA Bach. Music Program” I felt a sudden relief of pressure. It was incredible. All I could do was smile. I jumped the counter at work and hugged a customer for crying out loud.
See, lately, I’ve felt like there’s a gigantic weight on my shoulder. Seriously, like, think about what Atlas (that...
OMFGOMFGOMFG!
I GOT ACCEPTED TO YORKS MUSIC PROGRAM! SHIT SON!!!!!!!!!
“Hayley is cool. And a babe.”
– Some Random Hot Man
anyone else burnt out?
cause i am.
i just want to sleep.
that’s what i planned on doing on saturday.
instead i’m sad.
oh, family tragedy.
:’(
work?
there were 5 others with me searching, for life’s longevity wonder, can we learn to let go starving, for what we need to know
ever-changing machine monkey minds in the trees Are you
Alive?
What can reality be Touch me, I’m only in your dreams Impermanent Times
What can reality be Touch me, I’m only in your dreams Impermanent Times Defy me
Wake up how long have you been here...
done.
tidal waves, crash through our shades where’s jesus when you need him for christ sake? wings they’ve blown, us from the lives we’ve known the remote control, just turns it off
stop screaming your screaming we’re screaming “Help”
I feel you can throw another war aboard Just somewhere it won’t splash on me Water’s not wet through a tv screen...
hello.
hello. wave to all life’s little scenarios wave to karma wave to cryin’ wave to givin up on tryin’ say hello
Inside We’re all just bits of friends we used to know Are we questions we can’t answer When life rolls a little faster Say hello
Some say we’d be better off Alone
I’d rather say “Hello” I’d rather say “Hello”
Stairs...
February 2009
8 posts
to be nervous.
is to be human.
it’s a good thing.
keeps us on our toes.
.
i’ve made up my mind.
i’m going to england this summer.
without parents.
dear mr whoever 20-something feels
well, no one told me this was life
love or be loved fuck or be fucked
pay me something for my time
now it seems i’m losing my friends the spotlight don’t seem so bright some of us love, some of us pretend it feels so good tonight
you look good in it, take it off you feel good in it, get it off at 20-something thought means less direction than...
hobos on trains.
holy shit.
life is like a train. a fucking long, super high-speed train that never stops.
and you. are that hobo that’s trying to jump on.
but life just keeps going, and going, and going. and you’re just desperately trying to catch hold of that bar that sticks out the side or that rope that’s holding down the canvas that’s dangling over the side.
life just needs to take...
omg!
i’ve been accepted to york’s psychology program.
with a $2000 scholarship.
w00t!
.
and the snow will fall here again and the rain will fall here again close your eyes and feel what i mean close your eyes and feel it again
growing up.
tidal waves crash through our shades where’s jesus when you need him for christ sake?
wings they’ve flown from the lives we’ve known the remote control just turns it off
stop screaming your screaming we’re screaming, “Help.”
I feel You can throw another war aboard Just, somewhere It won’t splash on me
Water’s not wet through our tv screens...
TO DO!
1) Finish Portfolio (february 27th):
- Painting - Photography - Oil Pastel
2) University:
- Questionnaire for York - Demo Tape (one song done!)
3) Homework:
- Physics - ISP & Spinning football (next week!) - Media Arts - Artist Presentation, Artist Action Figure (next NEXT week!) - Visual Arts - Art History Package (eventually…) - Challenge and Change - Stage 4 (eventually…)
January 2009
6 posts
“Tom! Come up for air!”
– Hayley McCall
oh my gosh!
i need a haircut.
like.
majorly.
and i don’t know what to get.
aww.
i kinda wanna go short.
but not really short.
just kinda short.
blargh!
why do i feel like
i don’t belong.
i don’t belong.
inside the crowd.
just pick up my pieces and throw me away
TO DO.
1) Book Audition Dates - Humber? Check - York? Not yet. HOW DO I BOOK IT?! - U of T? Check. - Mohawk? Awaiting letter of acknowledgement
2) Finish Portfolio. - Sketchbook. Check - Photography - Photo montage - Painting - Sketches Check - Oil Pastels Check
3) Finish Questionnaires - Humber. Do they even require one? - York. Process! - U of T. Check - Mohawk. Check
4) STUDY!
5) WORK! Thomas...
“To create is divine, to reproduce is human.”
– Man Ray (Emmanuel Radnitzky)
December 2008
11 posts
RAWR!
It’s not done, I’m not even gonna be using that header.
it was just a test! I’m trying to figure out how all the goddamn HTML codes work for this thing.
I HATE STYLE SHEETS.
itwasawonderfulsplash:
LOL awesome layout tom.
stupidrantsgohere:
It;s friggin hard making a tumblr layout.
Jake and Amir →
These guys are friggin hilarious!
RAWR!
It;s friggin hard making a tumblr layout.
it's a shame we have to die my dear
but no one’s getting out of here alive
stress.
i’m working harder on my break than i am in school.
what the hell.
i need a girlfriend.
this is an apology.
i’m sorry guys for not hanging out with you for the past little bit.
i’m not doing as well as i’d like to in school, and i’m trying to put in the effort to do better. i’m sure you all understand the pressures of getting into university.
i’ll make it up to you some how.
girlie.
i think everyone knows someone like that.
prolixmay:
wow, hate. LOTS OF HATE LMFAO. nice.
vinyl:
oh my lord. there’s this one girl, i refuse to name names, that is sooo god-damn annoying. she will literally interrupt everyone when they’re talking. she also has this obnoxious laugh. and she thinks everyones practically in love with her. and she’ll try to make fun of people in those...
Sarah loves cash
Good luck, kid.
I’m rooting for you.
itwasawonderfulsplash:
I HAVE AN INTERVIEW AT CHUCK E CHEESE TOMORRWO AT 6:15, EVERYONE!
will i get hired?
please wish me luck. i need it, and it’s important.
thank you :D
pretty freakin tired.
i’m so sick of people who treat their friends like crap. to their face and to their back.
people these days are so two-faced. it’s hard to know who to trust, and when to trust them, which is why i try to be so upfront with people all the time. some people think that’s rude, but hey, they’d bitch at me if they found out two weeks later, right?
honestly. if you think your...
fuck you
hello, emo.
wanna talk?
prolixmay:
I hate people and I hate art. so fuck you.
